Her Spoken Silence

Chase to Talk I wanna talk, I ask to talk, I crave to talk, I cry to talk, I literally chase to talk... to you- in the times that we should... embrace to bring comfort and reassurance to one another's soul.. like a melody so familiar, but never old, You instead nestle in your past wounds,  not skipping a beat or a tune.  But- I still wanna talk, I ask to talk, I crave to talk, I cry to talk, I literally chase to talk... to you- in the times that we should... look into each other's eyes- and know that these emotions are temporary, we instead engage with feelings ever so unordinary. It fills us up with passion, that questions our reactions. Walls are up, temptations are down. You're in a haze, like no one is around. But- I still wanna talk, I ask to talk, I crave to talk, I cry to talk, I literally chase to talk...to you- However now, that is no longer, Because in the end- the pain that I once felt, only made me stronger. I'm done chasing... and I learned...

she felt no shame,     possibly no care, everyday, nothing is new, as she buys a disdained bottle, like there is nothing to do. what's more important to life, than to refill her insides with toxins and strife. she indulge in this mental sickness not seemingly less sane, but it blinds her actions like an immense pouring of rain. This is Her Unwanted Pain Eluding to this narrative several years later, shows that this continued, without acknowledgment and it was only catered. However, as we grow in age and wisdom, we must put an end to such behavior, we must believe that the Lord is our savior and will free us from this emotional labor. To help mend your sorrows and heal your wounds,  I believe that it takes, not just God, but the individual to reel themselves in, like a hooked rod.  The strength within, is greater than the battle you face,  You must be disciplined in preparation, like you are going to win your first big race. She must fight and believe sh...

Often I want to be, anywhere but here. In my own world and mind, I want to go away, not to follow the straight line or the common signs, that tells me to do the typical things, I simply want to set off, as the bells ring. Yes, I don't want to follow, my happiness is anywhere but here, out the corner of these four walls,  life is completely different. Different to my own liking everything I find to be entirely striking, will come to reality. A reality full of feeling of joy, love and success, that lifts me to the clouds,  and is at the upmost best. It last for enternity. My imagination will run free, because everything that I desire to be, all lies within me. Thus, anywhere but here, is where I often want to be. In my own world and mind, I want to go away, not to follow the straight line or the common signs, that tells me to do the typical things, I simply want to set off, as the bells ring.

Graduated, Now What? Four dueling, yet memorable years, all leading to this day, that's is said to pave the way. The day where all the hard work and accomplishments, left my pockets with only a button and some lint! But as it pays off, and the day arrives, a sense of relief appear in our eyes, in which cannot be disguised. Along with excitement and cheers, that filled all our ears, from parents, faculty and friends. Walking on that stage, was a means to an end, Earning the piece of paper, which doesn't say goodbye, but "I'll see you later!" It opens the doors, of hopes and dreams, that is often said to be impossibly as is it seems, but hey, the time has come, no more second looks, no more textbooks, leaving them shut, closed shut, no, if's, and(s) or but(s) I've graduated!! Though, Now What?!!

After a wonderful event filled sunny weekend, and reconnecting with old friends while meeting new ones, The following week started off with a few clouds and drizzles. that will hopefully later end to fizzle, and bring out the sun again and mend. However, I didn't mind, For me it was a moment to ponder and sit. Drizzles for thought I called it. Drizzles for thought, on the important things in life, -Important to me that is, Which was, Building an inner self confidence, that exudes my intelligence. Drizzles for thought on my perception on love and relationships, which often sometimes is a feeling that can be a real b*t*h " I want the real thing!", I stated the other day, However, that was only an expression that burst out of frustration, for an anxious temptation. Surely that wasn't me, because I have and certainly always, been a lady with patience and hope, that have learned to cope with the things that are not in my co...

For me this video, set off tears of Joy/Hope. So please Everyone, As we move through life, let us remain thankful and at peace with everything that we have.And Let us treat one another with kindness.   Live, Love, Laugh and Set free ♥

 Sitting in momentous state of mind, looking forward to the signs, that will guide me towards my happiness, that I anticipate to exist. I live my life with, goals set high, only to oblige by societies', precedent rules, that are constructed with constant duels, intended to set my fuel, scorching on fire, as my eagerness to find an answer, is a well thought desire. Though, there is no rush, cause for everyone in mankind, the vision that was once thought to be blind, miraculously will walk a straight line. A line that only lengthens, as one's motivation strengthens. So as I do the math, Remaining on the path, towards my goals, will slowly but surely guide me, in the direction, of my mind's discretion.

Her Mood, Her Style creates the individuality of her image as the layers compile. The color scheme of nature, is the inspiration she uses, it's very natural when it comes to the appearance she chooses. This reflects her personality, a caring,  free spirited soul, that inspires to create without constant cajole. Her Mood, Her Style, exist perhaps from her culture, where art and creativity exudes various expressions, that blossoms from different directions. Left and right, the perception of style, exist from different sight, of young and old generations, and the culture of dissimilar nations. Her Mood, Her Style will continue to be, as she take advantage from,   the inspirations of nature that are free. From the sounds of the wind, to the beat of a drum, one's individuality is just a rhythm that comes.  Her Mood, Her Style, allows her to contrive, thoughts that make her feel alive.  Hence, expressions that were once concealed, are now rev...

  "Alexandra's Project" A marital mystery that unraveled it's layers, as this myth of marriage, wasn't an idea sought in her  prayers. The focus on what others are receiving, are appearances that can be decieving. The efforts made to portray an all american family, to the outside world, resulted to her mind ending in twirls. Routines and traditions are stifled, the marriage and the children all left rippled. This marital mystery, was proposed to set her out of her misery, as actions were taken by a dissatisfied wife, whom seeked to prove her worth,  to a husband too self-centered to acknowledge her being, Hence, this was something that he wasn't seeing. " Play Me" was all that was written on a post it, as the husband's arrival to an empty home, of no wife & kids, left him with no other choice but to sit. To sit and watch every bit of a video that displays, the truth of a marital mystery, That unfortunately ended up in misery. ...

"Hedwig & The Angry Inch" , a rock musical portraying the exterior image of a woman, without the ability to flinch. Her confidence exudes who she was really meant to be, which is a woman, who loves to perform, and not a man who is torn, within the culture in which he was born. In East Berlin, living outside in, was surely a sin. But this didn't stop this pugnacious character,  as she threw on her favorite color eye shadow and heels, to create a new image for herself, that would no longer be concealed. Hedwig is the new name,  who is destined for fame, embarks on a journey to slowly erase the memory, of Hansel, who was a "slip of a girlyboy" simply living as a decoy. The stardom of Hedwig and the Angry Inch, living under the shadow of a growing rock sensation, that was illuminating the nation, led the group to find their own destiny, through their song " The Origin of Love", in which lyrically flew like the doves above. Three sexes...

My feelings for you were just a thought in my head, unwillingly choosing to express them, as nothing was said. You often stood in my presence, with a sheer essence, that illuminated my eyes, as though I was completely hypnotized.   The moment I met you, I was sure I knew, that we shared a common interest, However that was a feeling that I didn't want to risk. Afraid of being rejected, was a thought that wasn't neglected. But if I had it in me, I really would of wanted you to see, the desire that was bursting to be. To be your everything, your angel with wings, with a voice that sings, to the birds and the bees, and frail trees. As I give them hope, serves more of a reason to why I shouldn't mope, on the possibility of a chance, to revitalized an indisputable  romance. So the opportunity serves again, though I appreciate you as a good friend, perhaps I shouldn't pretend, on the encounter, that maybe was godsend. One may never know, where i...

Two faces for One Tear, the emergence of a relationship, that shifted gear. But which one is willing to hear, the emotions that led it this near, near the point of confusion, as both of us build several illusions... in our minds, as we keep our feelings confined, in our hearts, as it pierce through us like sharp darts. So, let us break this pattern, for the sake of our well being, let us break this pattern, and acknowledge the things we weren't seeing. Perhaps move on, and anticipate that we can prolong, with something so dear, it shouldn't be held back by fear. So, the two faces that use to share one tear, can now begin looking forward to another year. Poeticly Requested by: Derran Marlow

Caring, Sweet, Compassionate, Considerate, Funny but that is not all there is to you hunny... I just didn't understand it, the pieces just didn't fit, as I reiterate to myself, "what must it be?"... until I finally concluded to something that I didn't see, your one way here, but there is another side to you that I might fear, however not a frightened fear, more-so me becoming more enlightened dear. "Is this something that I want?" I say to myself Am I their light and nothing else? I don't know where my thoughts stand, but in a stranded desert, filled with sand. Does the good override the bad? Is it really that sad? I want to understand you more, but to what point?, as my brain becomes sore The confusion lies within a barrier of openness, which should be broken down, as we extend it with a kiss... So though there are two sides of you, I am willing to, stick it through, as we shall learn something new.

It was certainly a night to Remember, another random night out, and without a doubt, the most eye opening, and for that I will shout! A splash of testosterone, here and there A splash of testosterone, and let alone, led to all the things that were shown. Two young male tourist, randomly accompanies me to what will become, a night they won't forget. better yet, it can't be let... their eyes filled with discomfort, their body language seems uneasy, but their mouths tell me "I'm okay, I'm not queasy!" As they shout over the loud music, But am certain they were going to lose it. Let the good times roll... for about twenty minutes, next thing you know, the poor fellas just couldn't handle all the testosterone splash, leading them to hurry off in a dash... Ha ha ha, I laughed... So alone I remain, to search for my other half of friends that sustained... in which I shared with them the humor that took place, they started...

"Bah Hum Bug darn these thoughts".... It's that time of the year again, where all come together seemingly cheerful though for me, this is was pretty fearful I developed a state of mind in which wasn't enthusiastic about the approaching year, I just would feel that I am running out of gear... fuel is down, words are being exchanged but not found. "Bah Hum Bug darn the thoughts continue"... Close but far from home, As I spend my time away for the Holidays, I was actually at peace, at peace with the noise that never use to cease. It was a constant pattern of arguments and annoyance, I just wanted a time to get away and be someone else for a chance. "Bah Hum Bug, perhaps these thoughts should end"... It should end with a better sense of tomorrow, that things won't be filled with so much sorrow. I normally do live for the future, and not the past, therefore I shall continue to thrive for the things that last. "Bah Hum ...

She's breaking her silence as she opens up to the world, She speaks from her heart as the emotions unveil. Rarely was this something that she often does, But that was a matter with no cause. "Speak your mind!" everyone always tells her. Well just to let them know, that I Concur! So I welcome all readers, as I express and share all facets of life through my eyes, As it may come to some surprise, as these thoughts arise. Derived from my perception of Life, my Interest in the Arts, my Energy through Sports, and my Love for Children of many sorts, I, Muri, suspend my silence and starts a journey of unspoken resilience. I'm expressing my mind, as it was a sign to break free from 2009. A year of ups and downs, a continuous conjunction of sounds, that filled up my head with confusion yet excitement. That all led to a period of deep enlightenment. So with that said, I welcome the new year of 2010, as I quote the President, in which many thought wou...